Wednesday, June 28, 2017
"When I Grow Up, I Wanna Be"
When did the passions in our untainted hearts fall victim to outside perspective and negative emotions? Can life be so cruel, that it heartlessly and maliciously takes the God-given dreams and creativity of a hopeful heart, and crush them under the weight of “real world” thinking and fear-based logic? It certainly seems that way so often.
While wrestling with the embarrassing prospect that I evidently knew more about what my purpose and destiny were at four years old than I do now, I was made aware of this incredible, and encouraging possibility. What if the dreams, imaginations, and desires that we had as children were actually what God had in mind all along? What if we were the ones who “strayed”, or got off course? What if our destinies were set in motion, but intended to be realized only as we stayed closely and intimately connected to the source of that destiny? What if an infinitely creative God who loves us madly, always intended for us to see those dreams become reality? What if we could so easily visualize our dreams and “taste” those imaginations because, as children, we were closer to the heart of the One who placed them there than we are as “grown ups”? As kids, maybe our faith wasn’t as distorted by circumstance, opinions, outside perspective, or fear. Instead, we believed and expected to see! I kind of have this image of God’s process or journey for our lives, being one of “returning” or maturing into a child! Children love! They trust completely! They have limitless imagination! They take you at your words! They never lose that sense of wonder! They laugh! They are care free! They know how to rest!
So perhaps it’s a great day for me, even in the face of my forty-seven year old frustrated realization, what is really happening is that I’m being “returned” to the heart of my Father for me, and His destiny for me! And maybe the reason I feel so “clueless” about what I want to be now that I’m “grown up”, is that I’ve been trying to define THAT through “grown up” eyes instead of His heart. Perhaps? Journey on!